Right here. Right now. What am I going to do with it? Am I going to treat is like any other day? I have been given a variety of experiences that allow today to be uniquely rewarding, if I let it be.
I got it right. I nailed it. I accomplished everything that I had intended and more. I checked boxes, found personal satisfaction, and achieved success. However, this is far from what my every day looks like.
While the accomplishments of yesterday are important, I will not rest on their merit. Perhaps, I have done this to a fault. I have walled off past achievements as if they are of no current significance. Moving forward, I will do a better job at celebrating my accomplishments as testament to the hard work put in. I have worked hard and that work has taught me innumerable lessons. It has tested my resolve and it has stretched me way beyond the borders of anything that I thought was possible.
Yesterday can, also, be painful. I have lamented over follies of yesterday. Still, no matter what happened- there is nothing that I can do to change it. I would like to say that I did the best that I could do in that moment, but as long as I am being honest- sometimes I have not brought my best. For this, I can beat myself up about it. I can drag remorse through today, into tomorrow, and so on. Or I can forgive myself, appreciate my inexperience, and learn lessons that help me moving forward. The important thing is to move forward. Sometimes it is hard to see the lesson and I may not get it perfect the next time either. However, as long as I am making progress, I can accept progress. Making the same mistakes over and over again or allowing a poor decision to consume everything else is not okay. Ultimately, I believe that everything will work out and it is important to keep yesterday in its proper context.
I can’t wait to meet you, but first- today!